In my last post I told you about my why and my personal mission to help women who encounter the same struggles that I did. My passion and determination all stem from my experiences, and so now I want to share my story with you.
I spent eight years suffering in silence, consumed by my demons, and lost in destructive self-sabotaging behaviours.
I struggled heavily with disordered eating in the forms of anorexia and bulimia. I let my worth depend on what the scale read back to me, what jean size I wore, and if it was getting smaller.
From the outside, it looked as if I had it all together and was living “the life.” No one ever would have guessed that every single day was battle.
I was blessed with two children, a man who loved me, a beautiful country home, money in the bank, food on the table, I should have been so happy, but I wasn’t.
I knew I had it better than a lot of people, but for some reason I lacked that special feeling — you know the one.
Then came the day, I completely and totally fell apart, I had no choice but to change.
I had to stop pretending I was OK. I had to stop forcing a smile and saving face. I had to stop putting everyone else first.
The night I fell apart, I made a bold and brave decision to STOP trying to do it all myself and I reached out to my then boyfriend (now husband). I told him what was going on, and that I really needed to get help.
He was the first person I told and he helped me and encouraged me every step of the way, but I was the one who had to do the work, he couldn’t face my demons for me.
I began to go down a road of healing and self-discovery where some days where harder than others, and I questioned if I would even get through everything I needed to. Against all the odds, I made it.
By showing up every day for myself, and making a commitment to healing, I found what I was looking for. I finally found happiness.
I learned how to tune out that inner bullsh*t that told me I was ugly, fat, and wasn’t good enough. I learned how to stand in my power and speak my truth (even when it scared me). Most importantly, I learned how to love myself EXACTLY as I am — flaws and all.
This is how I began to make it my mission to help women everywhere feel the same. I know if I can do it, SO CAN YOU.
I am creating a ripple effect impact. I hope you’ll join me