Trisia Kimmy has been online for almost 3 years and I’m going to be really honest with you, sometimes it sucks.
I’m a mother of two beautiful children, ages 2 and 5, the mom of Lily the kitty, Sako the 100 pound lap dog, and Winnie the rat dog, and on top of that, a wife. As you can imagine, I have a lot of responsibilities as the partner at home. I have to make sure the house is kept up (more often than not it looks like a bomb went off in every single room), the laundry is done, the bathrooms are cleaned – you get the picture. On top of that, I have to mother the children and make sure they are entertained, doing homework, getting along, and getting dressed (that one doesn’t happen often) – you know, the normal mom stuff (like being “normal” is an option when you’re a mom). Even more, I have to feed the animals, cook the meals, do the dishes, and somehow find time in there to give my husband some love and attention. Let’s face it: husbands are pretty much like having another child. Lastly, I run an online business, which means keeping up with a blog, engaging online, and managing a list of clients who I meet with on a weekly basis.
Oh right, and somehow I also have to find time in there for myself so I don’t end up in the crazy house.
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE my business and clients – I really do. I couldn’t imagine not doing this. I love helping others overcome what I have had to overcome. The only caveat is that no one ever told me that being a stay-at-home mom and running an online business would be so freaking hard sometimes (and by the way, balance does not exist in my life whatsoever).
Sometimes the house stays messy so I can have fun with my kids. Sometimes I don’t write blog posts because the bathrooms REALLY need to be cleaned. Sometimes I stay up to 2:00 A.M. so I can just sip tea and read my book. And sometimes I cry in the bathroom because I feel like I’m failing — falling apart and letting my family down.
That’s the truth, not sugar coated or exaggerated, just simply as it is.
I feel as though people create a lot of hype about being your own boss, doing things your way, and blah, blah, blah, but they always seem to gloss over the hard parts. The difficult times where your house may not get cleaned for a week, or two, or three, or where your family might start to feel ignored.
This has been a journey and I’m still figuring it out most days. I pray A LOT and somehow I am doing it all, and managing to do it all successfully (most of the time — see above reference to house cleaning). I couldn’t imagine my life any other way.
Oh, and I think you should know it’s 11:52 P.M. and I’m writing this – just keeping it real.